西天取完了经东边应该还有

2006-08-29T01:58:00.002+08:00

hahs . i realize i m quite pro cos i still rmb the website to my blog:) anw.. i m super unproductv .. i study stuff and yet i duno what haf i studied:(

2006-08-29T01:58:00.001+08:00

hahs . i realize i m quite pro cos i still rmb the website to my blog:) anw.. i m super unproductv .. i study stuff and yet i duno what haf i studied:(

2006-06-02T22:28:00.000+08:00

when the story ends. which part of it can i take back as memories. you once said that you wanted to shower me with love. you want me to be with you day and night. however, when the curtains are drawn, while the applause stop. the story has to end eventually no matter how beautiful it once was. i wonder who sleeping beauty was thinking of when she suffered from insomia. the emptiness of a castle is the feeling of pain echoing throughout my heart when you left me alone. i wish you understand that even without a prince by her side, sleeping beauty can still remain strong.

2006-05-25T20:50:00.000+08:00

宏:黑夜渗透了想念偷不走微光闪现的千种画面我背着伤痛离开孤单拖着记忆支离破碎欣:原以为不会改变眼泪在脸颊上干枯失去知觉合:我的心挣脱了爱跟随着夕阳埋进了海洋合:为什么相爱的人却又为爱而纷争现实的翅膀扰乱了原本幸福的气氛我有我的过错我有我的疑惑藏在面对面的折磨背后为什么让爱躲进乌云密布的天空随着风漂流在外一点一点的散落慢慢远离的梦渐渐冷却冰封心痛都当初相遇的心动宏:慢慢远离的梦欣:渐渐冷却冰封
the darkness of dark penetrates my thoughts yet it cant steal away the thousands pictures i have of you shining brightly under the gleaming light , i carried the pain all the way as i leave behind my scars and lonliness . i drag my memories along like a branch that has fallen from the tree , so brittle yet so strong. i thought that the many streaks of tears that made their pave along my cheeks will eventually numb all feelings/. yet my heart seems to be struggling within itself in leftting our love be buried under the vast blue sea. why isizx that lovers quarrel because of love. the wings of reality disrupted the bonds of pure happiness. i admit i haf flaws, i haf doubts whenever we tumbled upon obstcles. why isix that we alwax allow love to be blocked by teh massive grey clouds that follow the vast endless skies. as the clouds roll by, our love is getting further and further apart. till our dreams eventually get frozen up. the coldness within our hearts is closing up our memories of our love. drop by drop, i finally manage to let you go.

2006-05-14T20:52:00.000+08:00

sheeesh!! i sae shu min once again in BISHAN mrt!! yippe.s hash . so excited.. anw.. on sat.. we went turf city.. ahsh . ate spag nt bad lea. ahsh den we went twn to buy mothers' day prezzi.. i gt my mum pedicure stuffs. ahash .. i wanted to buy mascara.bt 2pid monkey refuse to let me buy. ahsh . den we went chinatown!!! ahhas hw exciting la.. ahhash .. quite fun. but we ate lk nobody's business la.. :( omg. ahash FOOD.

2006-05-01T22:36:00.000+08:00

ooo. hash .. i didnt update on sports day!! ahash ./ i HAVE to make lucia jealous!! ahhas .. yupps.. i went to eat orange bowl mans@@ ahash . dam yummy. omg im startg to drool again.. we watched the cheerleading at first was cheerleading squad fm convent sch. eeks. hahs .. erm nt to sae.. our sch 1 is lk 100 times better la.. omg.. gt ppl laughg at dem lor.. includg me:( ahahs .. anw/. yepps.. kinda enjoyed it bt i was wearg my specs so i m concernd that i look super toot. ahahs . :( anw. den the race started:) but its different withoiut lucia without u by my suide.. it felt weird.. n i lost my voice!!!!!!!!!! so i cant cheer.. ahhas .. at 1st not relali sorethroat but yar low voice that breaks:( but i tot it was sexy so i kept talkg n talkg so that i will haf sexy voice:) ahhas .. but yet hahas . it didnt last// the strong michelle has terrific immune system with the help of my T-helper and killer cells:) ahahs . im on my way to recovery alr!! yipes:) ahahs . oyar.. den that fri t29 /4/06 thta gt sprots day rite. i went to tkd.. n i had a stomache ../ thk is orange bwl:( ahhas . mb too hot den i dont alwaz eat oit so i cant take it:( boos. bt still no qualms abt gg 4 another bwl tjhopugh:) ahahs .. den went i went 4 tkd.. sir was lk asking me cum over cos this j1:) was fm st nicks she wanted to join. started talking to her.. ahhs . den she was fm cj.. ahshas . den i was lk wa lao so jealous gt so many pretty gers !! ahsh . den she was like.. climax here..**drums roll*&*** no la u also pretty wad.. !!! ahahhs .. so happi~~~ omg.. hahs .. yaya .. i kan fly~~ ahash .. den ytd sun my aunt had bbq at her hse.. ate a lot.. ahahs .. n n n /. bernard helped me burnt xian jian qi xia zhuan on vcd that can onli watch on com but yay yay .. ahhs . tang yu xiao bao is superb cute:) muacks. ahhas

2006-05-01T22:25:00.000+08:00

walking along the empty streets, i wanna find sumwhere to place my feelings. loneliness has been by my side all the while. our love is just like sightseeing, we walked past but we wont stay. my love for u is a silent one. In exchange for ur flaming love is my concern. you said that love is like the clouds that needs to float freely in this vast blue sky. only then is its beauty magnified through our eyes. from the very beginning, i convinced myself that what matters in love is the process of possessing it, yet i finally realised that love must have a reply.

2006-04-07T16:40:00.000+08:00

met j2 on the bus tat day( wed)!!!!!!!!!!! was super qiao.. cos on cat high bustop he got on den i was rite at the bac. he sat on my left i kan secretly look at his face. hahs as in i wasnt wearg my specs. thx goodness otherwise look so nerdy!!! hhahs .. bt i cant see his face bt the feeling was dere.. yepps:) den i was suspectg he was in army.. so tall ..everythg fits. hahshs . BUT he got off like the nxt stop... my gosh la.. so lazy nt thx goodness he is cos otherwise i wont haf met him@@yay~~ hahash // im like super happy. after he gt off.. i quickly wore my specs to confirm. n yes the glance was enuff.. it was him. he was tryg to cal sum1 .. bet its his gf:( bt he dint get her@@ ahahhash. yi[[es. yaya.. recall those were the days. haaix.

any .. tue n thurs i went for SOCCER!! muddy and dirty nt was quite fun. jus tt i alwaz dont get the ball. thk is cos no boots slipeery n i dont noe their names so cant call 4 the ball:( sobbs. hope i kan improve. hahash . yay~ qwent to amk cantral w marilyn todae to eat. gosh soooo dammit full la.. ate hokkien mee sugar cane ice kachang. hahash .. den went to world of sports and sportslink to look at the boots. hahs .. shd buy soon n socks. hees.P)playd w the guys soccer to dae.. hmms not bad . bryan broke mari left wrist la. omg. hash nt really break la.. a bit swollen red. ahhahs .. den thk hes quite gentlemanly compared to like the horrid guys in kalss cos when 2pid zhonmin kick ball out i went to take cos he no shoes den bryan n zm was lk walkg towards to help me i guess bt i was out alr -.-'' bt tt was nice.. i wish he n selene kan quickly be toghter la!!! on teh bus me n mari were talkg abt it.. they are lk a super slow movie lk.. feel llk fast warding dem so tt dey kan hurry b 2ghter.. hahsh . awww hw sweeet

2006-03-30T20:21:00.000+08:00

才话别已深秋,只一眼就花落窗台人影独坐,夜沉的更寂寞一段路分两头,爱了却要放手无事东风走过,扬起回忆如昨摇摇欲坠,不只你的泪,还有仅剩的世界嘲笑的风,高唱的离别,我却听不见穿越千年的眼泪,只有梦里看得见我多想再见你,哪怕一面前世末了的眷恋,在我血液里分裂沉睡中缠绵,清醒又幻减梦在前世发觉,我在梦里搁浅月光浸湿从前,掺拌了的想念你眺望着天边,我眺望你的脸谨记你的容颜,来世把你寻找摇摇欲坠,不只你的泪,还有仅剩的世界嘲笑的风,高唱的离别,我却听不见穿越千年的眼泪,只有梦里看得见我多想再见你,哪怕一面前世末了的眷恋,在我血液里分裂沉睡中缠绵,清醒又幻减摇摇欲坠,不只你的泪嘲笑的风,高唱的离别不管还要等待多少年...穿越千年的眼泪,只有梦里看得见我多想再见你,哪怕一面前世末了的眷恋,在我血液里分裂沉睡中缠绵,清醒又幻减

2006-03-30T20:20:00.000+08:00

泪有点咸有点甜你的胸膛吻着我的侧脸回头看踏过的雪慢慢融化成草原而我就像你没有一秒曾后悔爱那么绵那么粘管命运设定要谁离别海岸线越让人流连总是美得越蜿蜒我们太倔强连天都不忍再反对深情一眼挚爱万年几度轮回恋恋不灭把岁月铺成红毯见证我们的极限心疼一句珍藏万年誓言就该比永远更远要不是沧海桑田真爱怎么会浮现

2006-03-30T20:06:00.000+08:00

twinkle, twinkle,little star, how i wonder what you are.believe, believe, believe,you are the only star.a long time ago a little girl wanted to find her future.she went to the mountains and asked the sky"where's my future?"and just then, a little star said"sweetie, the future is in your hands!"yes, the future is in our hands!
the little girl climbed over the hill at that time, she dint noe why fireflies wont move. they stayed there to light up the dark skies the little girl slowly grows up but she dint noe why adults can spare time to go drinking when they fall out of love yet no time to look at the skies decorated with stars the stars seem to lend a listening ear to her as she wishes to become part of their big family unafraid of the dark, proudly shining away shining so brightly till the moon is jealous

2006-03-30T19:53:00.000+08:00

as i look on you leaving i felt like i am drowning in the seas unable to breathe how can i possibly get used to a life without u i can i hold on to teh disappearing clouds how can i lie to myself that love exist you dont need to say anithg i dont wanna noe at least i have my dreams i finally realised i need to let go

2006-03-30T18:51:00.000+08:00

the slping body has woken up amidst fallen leaves it is the sighs of nightingale that broke the curse the forgotten sword is awaiting the day where it will accompany the sound of music that speaks a thoudsand words i realised the most honourable sacrifice is that of a hero as he wields the sword while keeping the tears of regret in his heart living is to prove that love exist after the scorching of fire we are all reborn killing is for the victory that destroys all the magnificant buildings i cant see our future nor look back on our past i cant tell the difference between life and death i leave this world without bringing along any joy or sorrow the exchange between sunrise and nightfall has been a routine since the old age

2006-03-26T21:27:00.000+08:00

i always cant hold back my tears of lonliness only with you do i feel comforted the temporary sunny side of life is readily engulfed by the dark because of the fear of losing therefore i act miserable even though in times of happiness so that you wont notice my insecurity you always hold my right hand but my heart on the left side is separted from u by an unstopable barrier i reach out my right hand to hold your hands but my left side is loving you so deeply yet so painfully i believe that one day all the grudges of you leaving me alone can be erased from the face of this world you are alkwaxys rushing away to work to meet up with friends but u cant seem to spare a minute to look at me in the eyes this imperfect lo9ve has its fair share of flawa yet to me it will alwax be perfect because you are in it.

2006-03-24T18:38:00.000+08:00

yeppp ruouyun@@ im looking forward to tuesday!! hopefullly moreppl will cum!! gahsh .. walkwalk kkks. hahsh .. belinda kan make it. u too rite. wad time ?

2006-03-24T18:31:00.000+08:00

under the sun i sat alone
waiting for them to end their game
i cant join in
im not part of it
i jus wan to go
go far away
to a land where i dont haf to face ppl i dun like
to a land i dont haf to talk to be happy
to a land where im understood
to a land without u

2006-03-14T17:11:00.000+08:00

putting down our photos , i cant seem to let go of my love
love can only increase by the seconds
wishing darkness will befall upon this city
so as to shhine off my love for u the whole nite
thking back of the days i had with you
thkinking of the places we went together i cant bear to harm the fond memories locked in my brains of u

you dont seem to understnd the mask i had on me to tell you i dont care
the lonely days i spent thkinking of you
my indecisiveness only made me twirl in teh circle of love
the tears of the skies seem to know why i cried i found solace within them i can only see he rainbow after the rain the sounds of pattering rings around my ears reminding me of my tears.

the same sweater we shared in the rain gave off a tingling scent of your hair made it hard for me to forget you i fell into the valey of sorrow unable to find my way up perhaps it is best i stayed there away ffrom you the imperfect love you gave me was enuff to see me thru my darkest period freeing my misery like the wings of the dragonfly carrying it away while leaving me missing you i cant move on with my life without you by my side may our memories stay within the sweater

2006-03-09T01:14:00.000+08:00

guuesss wad hes online nwww.. omg kan feel his prescence bt wait shdnt he b in army? hmmms/ gp todae.. dint fnish aq.. ahsh . bt i giess nvm cos i alwaz dont no well in aq:(

hrllos@

2006-03-05T19:57:00.000+08:00

guessss wad. on fri it was a HAPPY DAE. cos in tkd. the xiao didi men all was talkg to me n laughg with me:) mmuahahs . even the cute kaixiang.. n theres the p4 boiboi that wans to teach me taegod. lols. n aftr i left kaixiang said BYE to me .. well the others did too:) bt so cute:) den this couple was lk asking me hw to go night safari . i went all the way to ask the control station guy bt they left!!! omg. thk they dint noe i went to ask. gosh. den i waited ard to finish my drink n after cant see dem. i left to take the train!!! n n .. the highlight. jus as i was decidg to go yio chu kang or amk. i decidd go yck since aj is dere! n n .. i saw this couple on the bustop. hees.. well nthg much then. b4 i took the bus HE was meeting my eyes . for that split second!@ omg. i reaslize it could be HIM. cos he was wearg a cap.@ n HE is in army! my gosh!!!! hahas . dammit his gf quite chio n hot:( hahhas .. n i was lk peeping at the back at them:( ahahsh . bt i felt happy:) n lost. omg. ahhas . affinity. oimg. i so m fated w him. alas the heavens love to play jokes on mere mortals lk me n u . hahahs . gohsgosh./ :) yippesss.

2006-02-11T18:55:00.000+08:00

helllosss.. i saw aj vs rj bb in da moring.. suddenly feel so sad. lk lost. n i miss bb n those days i had fab fun. i misss shu mins lots. n alll the potential chio bu tt i cld haf gotten:) yumyum. hahas
den i saw np. feel depress n sad cos its llk so familiar yet distant.

2006-02-02T22:57:00.000+08:00

helo ppl. i m itching all over cos i haven bathe yet n its alr 1059 pm. lols.. shall go sooon:) so tt i kan b nice smeelllg to hug all of you :) muacks

2006-01-27T21:27:00.000+08:00

todae is a saaad dae. dint noe suim1 parents kan be so dammit cruel. omans. i realli dont noe wad to do hmmms.. hope everythg will be alreitgh. hmmms. gosh.. god pls help him. i noe u love all of us as much.pls keep our hopes toghter n let the storm pass by quickly n gif him peace mans. plssss. thx
went swiimmg. terribly sun burnt. ouch

2006-01-26T23:19:00.000+08:00

hellos. i still haven do maths yet shit. die.. hahhaas .. tired.. thk i shd brin sweater to sch to cover up nv tuck in:) hahahs .. anw. mummy bought bags 4 me ytd.,, dam nice of her. love her.. hope tml kan go collect pay hahash .. yippes.:) muacks.. when are we meetg ar ry n wh.. i 4gt..

2006-01-17T18:55:00.000+08:00

heyhye.s. big rain todae.. pon pe with vivian to go library.. hahas . den we started out our big plan of dieting!! hahs .. bt now.. we both broke it n ate chocs:( ahhash .. anw.. shall start studyg later:) n im still waiiting 4 2pid wenhui to go buy the bag w meee:( u sux

2006-01-15T20:11:00.000+08:00

jus read memoirs of a geisha.
thk is kinda hooking story. hahs .. jus shock to find out tt i thk there is really no such person yeah.hahas ..

2006-01-15T20:02:00.000+08:00

一件黑色毛衣两个人的回忆雨过之后更难忘记忘记我还爱你你不用在意流泪也只想刚好合意我早已经待在谷底我知道不能再留住你也知道不能没有孤寂感激你让我拥有缺点的美丽看着那白色的蜻蜓在空中忘了前进还能不能重新编织脑海中起毛球的记忆再说我爱你可能雨也不会停黑色毛衣藏在那里就让回忆永远停在那里the black sweater that contained our fond memories lies in the corner
even though the rain may seem to dimish your image from my mind
i stll cant forget i love you
no matter how much tears were shed for you
you dont seem to care
my emotions are stuck in the valley of depression
i know i cant hold on to you any longer
i know i cant stand lonliness
thanks for letting me cling on to the remaining imperfect love
peering at the white dragonfly in the sky
i lost touch of time and reality
the thread of the black cotton slowly spins into the web of love
no matter how hard the rain pours your heart no longer linger
let the black sweater remain in the corner to soak up all the tears that trickle down my face

black sweater by jay:)

2006-01-05T20:25:00.000+08:00

i lead a sad n depressing life. i hate dem. they made me go to tt sucky sch.. i wan to turn bac in time. life is getting worse by the day by the hour by the minute by the second. huiling say i shd take it easy and get used to it just lk her. bt i cant. its simply unbearable. honesty. wad the life m i leading. every morng waking up .instead of feeling excited n motivatd. i worry abt hu to find to accompany me . there is simply no 1 there in the morng. sum how todae i feel extra extra xtra. lk i dont fit in there. tt is nt where i shd belong. why was i so silly and materialistic. y didnt i thk deeper. y didnt i jus pay $10 to change. y y y . i hate this world. i hate you. y never seem to notice. u never seem to understand what m i feeling. the misery morng brings carry on through out the day. i m nt the least bit happy at all. when im nt happy. hw do u expect me to focus n study? is this really all for my own good. to lead me to become a depressed person feeling all left out an outcast?> i hate it. i cant wait for all these to end. den i thk . wld it still happen in the future? why m i like tt.. janice n jason can alwaz get along well w strangers. yet i seem unable to open up to others. hiding in my own shell of life wanting to get away from every1. yet a part of me long so much to belong. jus to belong to somewhere. to fit into the jigsaw puzzle. np has made me felt bonded. campcraft has left me being part of it. yet the past haunts me. i only noe how to look back n regret never satisfied w wad i haf.. uncontenment and greed leads me to where m i now. mb it serves me rite. jus go away.

2005-12-23T12:05:00.000+08:00

went back stnicks fer ccc:)!!! dam exciteg~! to see them peg n peg it urself:) hahahs .. although some part a bit sian bt sti.ll;ll i love it.. n i finally gt my ccc shirt!!hjoooray:") ahhahas .. thk dey ahvg xmas party:( sad cant go cooooss...im meeetg darling hwang ching;)

2005-12-23T12:01:00.000+08:00

watchd kingkong w monkey ytd:) hahahs .. wellwell.. it was soo dammit long 3hrs!! haah .. bt its nice although a bit dragy:) the skull island part was veri excitg:) bt the part where kingkong kena haunted dwn was a bit depressg.. lke .make me thk a lot. i mean firstly.. it was man who stepped into beast territory.. den lead him to mans' island. yet whn the beast started to do thgs he is used to in his own land.. man refute it by uising technology agst the victim of mans own selfishness. its kinda jian .. hmms.

2005-12-12T22:42:00.000+08:00

back to work!! hahgahs .. the day was preety borrring since soo little customers. haahs .. but the highlight of the day is after work i went w wujuan back to scret receipe to peeek at my cute guy:) hahhas .. well we went to eat there lars. hahs . n quite ok la :) bt the cake there seriously.. ahemly sucks. bt hte food dere is nice. suma gaf me hers so i went to eat chicken lagsane .. thk the beef 1 was nicer hahs . anw.. den jus when i was dissappointed tt HE didnt come.. i saw him!!! hahash .. ewll was quite jealous he was toking n surroundd by the 2 girks!! bt they are nice ppl. so i shall be a generous person n share. lols. ahahs .. anw.. the highlight of the day is once again when we left ard 830!!!hahahs .. i said bye to the rest and AND .. i said bye wave to him!! shit i forgt did he wave back buut BUTTT he said bye too!! hw exciting.. ggaga , woow.. bt i look lk shit:( hahahs .. oily face that ate white choc cake n cafe latte. shit me . it totally made me wanna puke mans. ahhas .. bt the price to pay to see him rocks. hahsh :) woolala .. im a happi girl. hees.. wannna work with him lor. 2pid guy keep workg late shifts. umf.

2005-12-11T21:08:00.000+08:00

s.h.e bu xiang zhang da.. kinda nice cos i realli dun wan to grow up . hahas ..:)
in this practical world. danger lurks everywherre
the people ard u are holdg roses bidding their time to stab u
the sweet nothings you used to whisper in my ears
are nothing but empty lies that make me tear
why isix that apple n hugs can hold knives behind their backs
i never knew i would be this lonely whithout you by myside
thinking back .the memories of my old rugged doll comes floating aside
i dont wan to grow up
the adult world do not have garden of flowers
i dont wan to grow up
i rather stay silly
i dont wan to grow up
our love might change as we age
i dont wan to grow up
what the crystal ball predicts does not contain my future
i wan to remain in the deep sleep waiting for ur kiss
yet you have already changed your target and let go of me
my wish to a shooting star has not come true
waiting for you is not anything new
this world can be imperfect in its own perfect ways
i hate the complexity of our love
humans can be much more dangerous than monsters

2005-12-11T20:59:00.000+08:00

went fer archery compeition this sat../. was dam sunny la.. im sun burnt:( well kinda hjappy:) cos i kan be darker:) hahahs .. n i did nt bad.. 94 round 1 88 round 2.. well round 2 was kinda sucky since ken adjusted the thg. hahhs .. but in the end i still change bac to my own so it was nt so bad misses. hahash .. anw i gt into team!! suppose to go compete todae.. bt hahsa .. im too lazy to go .. so i said i realli cant make it. anw.. go i will be a roast lobster.. hahsh /

2005-11-27T21:02:00.000+08:00

we made a pact to come to this world
yet we were separted on the way
the way GOd plans our lives
the way HE gives sunshine
to be together is a faith we must keep
putting our brains together will help us leap
perhaps it was ur smile
perhaps it was our destiny
perhaps it was the galaxy that brought us together
sitting by each other in the night
waiting for the sun that brings hope
if the road ahead is too dark
close your eyes to see
the feelings cannot go wrong
with your heart beating its tune
guiding your path
daybreak is the reward for those who perserve.
as long as theres hope in your eyes
it will shine into the shiniest star

2005-11-27T20:32:00.000+08:00

the long night woke me to my senses
i learnt the taste of tears
my tap seems to be left open
flooding the earth and its grounds
longing for you has became my habit
the shoes that brought me ard has torn
leaving me with regrets
flipping the pages of my life
i breathed out a sigh
so much has changed
what used to be for me has now belonged to another person
what used to be kept for me has now faded away
what used to be is no longer what it is.

2005-11-27T20:22:00.000+08:00

i love the feeling of plastic.. it makes everythg seem fake.
its kinda renewable.. where u reuse them for other stuffs.
its kinda like a rebirth for the plastic.
the elasticity teaches ppl to be strong
smthg so insignificant like plastic can withstand huge pressure
why cant we human
the softness of it
like human hands to heal wounds unmistakable caused by you
yet you repeatedly inflict pain on me
giving me no space to breathe
keeping me in a box will not lock me by ur side forever.
mb only when time pass
we can be like plastic. remain un bio-degradable.

2005-11-27T20:11:00.000+08:00

i cant seem to let go of my love for you
it only increases by the day adding on to its weight
your smell lingers in my mind
like the lights shining through the night
it remains soft and sweet
i cant delete the memories of you from my mind
saving it a special place where i can visit whenever i want
true love is so simple
simplifying the equation i get your face
multiplying both sides i see your smile
yet the division sums does nt take away my pain
day by day
i wait for your message
nite by nite i can only see you through a passage
dreams is where i cant see you once again
to wake up is to go through the pain
the wind outside breeze through my hair
whispering in my ears you will alwazx be there.

2005-11-27T20:00:00.000+08:00

the dark clouds left an unbearable mark on our hearts
i listened to lonliness for an endless peiod of time
our emotions are peices of glass
yet the beautiful scenery can only be viewed through our memories
your hurting heart cant space to love me
holding your cold hands open the door to the past of our warmth
what has changed is the key to the lock
sadness seem to linger long enuff to remind me
the falling leaves is like my pining for you
piece by piece they touched the cold hard ground
your smile is enscribed onto the leaf
yet i cant seem to hold on to it
i sit by the tree watching the leaves fall and winter pass
time is like the trail of tears
before i can wipe it away it disappear into the floor without a trace
like our past it has moved on
yet i cant stop myself from thinking about you
no matter hw hard i try
your hands will never be mine
the flame has already extinguished before autumn

2005-11-27T19:59:00.000+08:00

oo.. i went msia bought the dvd pirated:( for S.H.E the zhen ming tian nu .. hahas . watchd finish alr@@! is dammm cheap lor.. 3 disc of 22 esp is only RM24=S$12!!omg.. good bargain! hahash . spore i thk selling ard 40 plus ba.. hahas .. it was nice:) anw.. jay ne3w album is dam dam nice:)

2005-11-27T19:55:00.000+08:00

hyeheys.. i had a dream abt j2 that nite:) it was nice until i dint wan to wake up. bt as usual .. he wasnt tokg to me:( bt nvm:) its enuff.. im satisfied:) im a happie ger.hahs .. ooo ry!! i cant post anithg on ur new bloggie:( .. y were u upset on 24 nov? nv cum toktok to me:( bt nvm.. hope ur feeling better nw:) smiles k.. hahas .. i went msia .. jhad lotsa fun dere.. ate steamboat n all. haix.. gain weight.. 2pid guy cum sae i grew fatter:( sobbies.. bt im excited fer tml work at secret receipe .. hope ppl will cum n support me!!*hinthint* hahas .. do cum and see me kaes./. hahsh .. keep me opccupied:) hahas .. j8 1 rmb!! hahahs /. bt sorri no free cake or discount.. hahas . cos if i do tt.. dey will dock my miserable pay:( hahas ..

2005-11-13T19:56:00.000+08:00

heyheys!! hahs .. i had a nice dream tt dae.. well after i kena kicked in the eyes by stoipd edision@@@@ wa laooo.. it was horrid.. my whole right contacts flew out!!! hahahs . yar. den i was tearg uncontrollably.. eyes red.. hahs .. he lookd dam soorii.. hahs .. went to sit dwn den go toilet was .. he wanted to accompany me.. wait outside the toilet.. at least he has a conscience.. omg.. it was dammit red lar... i took off my left contacts too.. hahs . den sat at one corner.. i was pressing agst it head dwn.. den he came to ask if ok.. htat 2pid arse.. hahs . still sae tml ur eyes will pus and swollen.. darnit. hahas . bt it was farni:) sian lor.. suay mans. hahs.. sparring is dangerous. hahash .. nw my eyes better... still gt orh chey n the bit of red.. it kinda lookd horrible.. sobbs:( bt thx wh! n shumins.. hahah .. well cos i was realli angri tt time.. bt nw im FINE:) .. hahas .. bt a bit heart broken.. cos j2 nick is XX n bernie sitting on a tree K I S S I N G .. WA LAO :( .. im sad/ :( hahash .. ooo on fri nite. den i had a dream... hahs . dreamt of bad results.. den i was dam sad.. this guy .. cant see the face brough tme to sit on a bus tt u kan order food on!! bt i cant seem to open the booklet properly.. in the end i didnt get to eat.. n i thk i was realli hungri.. as in in my dreams i cld felt tt i was hungri:( den i cried.. hahas .. i woke up n i was still crying:( .. bt the piggy me still managed to fall back to slp.. whahhas .. den sat me mum jas papa ewnt toapayoh eat dinner.. papa went to walk walk .. we all went to watch just like heaven.. simple story bt kinda nice:) funni too:)

2005-11-02T08:40:00.000+08:00

hmmms.. sian si wo le.. doin pw now.. bt it totally sucks... hahs.. hw..i dunno hw to lengthen my speech. thx to selfish prok.. ytd was an idoitic dae la.r. idoit.. hmms..bt

MICHELLE SUX NV GO CHALET

2005-10-31T22:39:00.000+08:00

im soo totally fucked up. so totally.. idoitic.. crybaby.. walao .. cant stamd u pple. arrr. jus go away la.. stop complaing to me ur probs kan.. stoptryg to gain sympathy.. sorrri.. voting booth for such sympathy votes are long closed. bingo. CLOSED. so jus stop it. i cant understamd uy.. nthg better else to do ar.. im seriously sick of hearg u gettg sick n ill n wadsoever. i noe u gt loads of probs. bt hello.. i dunos.. it jus totally suck. u keeppp forcing me. i dunno wad the hell to do w yu. n another probs. jus fuck off. u suc totally, u areshoile. idoit. totally hate u .. pangsai. arrrr.. erxin l.. wa lao.. cant u jus so grow up n stoip acting lk a baby. idoit. nopes im so nt sorri for wadeva i did. actually i feel nthg. yepps. mean n everythg. n fer info. i dun mind goin to hell for that. u sucker. n yes anotehr pest uin my life. i dunnno wad the hell are u tryg to boast to me? hellos get the clue.. fuck off. idoit. i nv wan u in my life. now i see y insecticide was ever invented. yar. to kill off pests lk u n ward off the rest. mb i shd jus b coooped in this nut shell of mine. yar.. stop being irritatg la u ppl.. it jus totally sucks sooo much that i dun feel lk doin anithg abt it. i hate u .. i hate miself. yar i m mean n evil. its jus me. ME. jus throw up n quit living. get a life of wad ever is left. u ppl sucks. leave me alone.

2005-10-19T22:40:00.000+08:00

haeyyyyyy.. dammm happi .. ytdae sae my j2 at j8!!!!!!!! omg.. it is sooo rite to go 4 chem remedial.. i kan forget abt the 1 hr waitg time i spent to wait for the 2pid tcher cos without tt .. i wont haf seeen him!! arrrr
soo happi
was lk my heart goin to pop out alr loor. hahash .. i saw hisback view n i IMMEDIATELY recognise it..:) lols. yep. n i calllled wh . cos i cont contain my excitem. hahas .. i was lk stalkg him la.. using the corner of my eyes to seee him./ hahas yay.//. n guess wad.. i dreamt of him last nite waving at me.. though nv sae anithg.. bt a smile .. a wave was good enuff :) i m a happi ger:) i misss lucia.. thx lulu 4 being dere 4 mee when i was depressed n scared:)
anw.. tosdae wwent out to celebrate hl BELATED bdae:) i hope she kan promote .. gd luck babe :) sure kan one.. anw.. gnin tan isix wadeva her shitty name is sucks to the ultimate core.. so sttopid woman ... heartless jerk. no wonde she has soo much white hair.. serve her rite for still being a MISS.. hahahs .. cos she is mean n dont sympathise w pple.. mb humans are jus nt her type of racce. anw..im super tireeed.. still haf to do pw.. bt was quite ok lar. hahs .. :) so happi get to see dorrreennnn tosdes.. ji bai nian nv see her lioa.. as well as ruoyun hwching yukki belinda n of cos wh whom i jus saw a few days ago.. *sian.. hahahs kigdding.. love ya:) i hope i kan dream of j2 again.., i u noe... i wasnt lk thking abt him b4 i slpt.. which means tt i WAS thking of him subconscieously until i dreammmm.. wow.. hahas ..

2005-10-09T11:46:00.000+08:00

yay .. promos over. bt weather dam bad keep raing hw to go outt:( hahas .. cant play bb tooo.. cant wait to seee alll of my darrrrlings. hahas .. jus playd maple story.. ewrm.. cant see wads the mei li inside maple story.. so boring./. ahahs my nick was dumBochicken./ sort of cant stop lauffg all e way. ahhas . my bro is addictd to tt game mans/ haic/ ok mb i m nt cut out for that game..i rather haf my childish game of bomber man./ collapse or that 6 to 12 years old game meant for kids./ muaahhs ./ anw soo long nv blog liaos.. bet every1 mises meeee. hahas n i noe u all are noddg ur heads./ yesh you all are. muahshhas

2005-09-09T22:55:00.000+08:00

heyehys!! im dam hjappi. moring woke up at lk soo dammit ealry.!! went sch to do pw.. n guess wad.. the bus was s ooo crampd that i cant force my way out .. missing my stop! den this old man saw n smiled=) mei li wu fa dang mans. hai me walk so much. i almost gt lost:( bt thatx to the smart me. i din. whahahs .. den ngaip jinyong shuching veri nice.. sae happi bdae. even wrote me a slipshot note. whahs. bt still thxthx. hahas /./ den ngiap bought apple stwerdaer fm stall 1.. hahs.. thgx though.. denwent lib to do reserach bla bl;ah.. haahs // trick yp that woo was messagg her. when realli // is US. hahas .. den met jS go sommereset to meet huiling darling.. ahhs ofcos i had to go home n bathe 1st n change n be a preeety gURL hahas . :) met the darlings! tts brighten up my dae. love the monkey toy dey gaf. hahash // den went to eat. lucky i shared w wenhui.. otherwise i will b dammmm fuLL lor. n i still shared oreao cookies that tasted heavenly w huiling~ couldnt resist the charm of it.. no banana festa so she kindly cos im the bdae gurl gaf me my choice:) yuipppes. hahas . den went to take fotos.. n waitd for yukki to come take neos:) hahahs .. thz to huiling hwangching wenhui doreen ruoyun huiqian belinda yukki for cumg babes:0 ahhas n dordor went bac amk w meeee./. hw stoopid was she.. gettg us lost n scanng at the wrong side. :) bt i simply loV3E her:) hahhas .. then went to js hse a whoile.. he kena scoldd by mum was havg peace.. when i wanted to surprise him cos i sae i nt cumg liao..:) haahs ok hes stunn bt nt shock. whah . den went to eeat since he haven eat eyt.. now come the finale!!! i met wujuan sittg at the bustop my hse there lookg lk a maid callg:) hahahs .. i was sooo excited on the bus that i thk i ignored him.im sorri.. a bit guilty.. bt still chiobu wad.. cant resist. hahas /./ yayay//!! n she was lk wait deng yi xia guess wad!!!!!!!!!!!!! LUCIA loh came tooo!!im utmost shocked!! n realli happi!!! dey bought a cake. n sang bedae song fer me.. seriously ..im most touchd by dem.. i mean.. st bicks spirit rocks.. lk realli rock. kan feel it runng in our bld thru the veins. making us stroing.. keepg us alive. hahahs . yippe.s im happi:) i love you guy6s:) had chilli crab at home n bcos of ALL tt i ate to dae.. i almost couldnt finish my cake at home!! hahhas.. bt i still did. whahs .. mango!! bt i love wujuans n lucia cake too!!! hahahas .. thxthx.. muacksmuacjs.. kan gif u my heart :) u pple made my dae alive:) though im tired.. im happi..

2005-09-04T20:06:00.000+08:00

heyehsy everryyyBodyyy MIC THE GREATTT IS BACK!!! aghhaahs . went pasa malam jus nw. ate lk a pig.. watchd shark boi n lava ger in 3d.. wa lao watch le a bit giddyyyy hahahs . but nciee la..

2005-08-31T22:30:00.000+08:00

im dam fcuk off.. i dunno y .. the whole dae sux.. well in stnicks .. i was tryg to be happi .. den went w wj n leehau to watch innocent steps .. i was happi . den later met dap mel ok larrr.,. i dunnos. mb cos daphne goin away.. feelg lost n fuckd up. i sux. i mean everythg starts to cum bac.. all the times good n bad. after idiot marcus calld.. the mood went strgt dwn.. kan u stop botherg me idiot., u sux. i wan u ouitta meee life. ur nt even a fren of mine. y mus i report to u wad the hell m i doin..kan u jUS get a freakg grip on ur life instead of intruding into mine>? kan u jus get lost n stop everythg .. its drivg me mad. when i shout at u .. u sae i becum so xiong.. den i feel guilty. so kan u freakgly jus stop . make the earth stop spinning and the phone stop ringing. u piss me off BIG TIME. but i had fun w lucia at the piano! n wujuan was so nice to br9 me to mrt since i totally sux at directions. tts anotehr thg. y cant i be more independent? y mus i keeeeepppp relying on others... yyyy cant i freakingly. jus rercognise places. i sux man. i was so anti social when our class was dere.. sec 4 life was great but sum hw i dun wan to go ard with dem. cos i gt ntg to sae. n i happen to hate forcing meself to thk of a topic. n zibbie ko with her irritatg attitude. well if i sae hi n u dao ppl. jus freakingly fuck off. i hate u . dont go daoing ppl n when i gif u the angri look by ignorg u .. n even wujuan kan seee that.. den u wan to topk to me. sorri . i m still angri n i jus cant stop showing it. i dun wan to act lk nthg happen n be frerns witjh u when deep dwn i dun lk u . sorri i jus cant do it. i feel so much better after rattling on and on .. and thx to darling yukki tooo. she roc.

2005-08-30T23:07:00.000+08:00

hyeheys. ruoyun!! i did write ur name.. read properly!!! hahhas
anw was doin pw AGAIN. SIAN.. ahsh went for learng journey todaes.. hash zheng he.. crap. soo tiredddd.. hahas .. den wen tot makan.. nice selene brought me to the bugis mrt coss heeehs.. i m a blockhead at directions. shit. ahhs den i haf to ask monkey to cum cossss i dunno hw to take mrt.. i will be lost. heeS. loser sorrrii.. cant wait feeer tml!!! get to seee all of dem !!!

2005-08-24T00:39:00.000+08:00

jus ffinsh 2PIDeom. walao. dam sian lor. spent 4 hrs on it lar. wa laoooo. thx to crystal.. ry to gif me pointers on hw to do :) muacs. n i simply love to irritate wenhui by aarouin her curiousity on wad happened. hahas . huiling looks sooo tired everydae .. though i dont often seee her animore:( bt take care ka darling.. slp early.. dun watch show until 4get to slp horrr.s n darling lucia. hohohos.. i misss you .. wujuan n yoshika tt dae so much lorrrrr.. n NP. kan u believe it. ahhas .. anw/./ im sooo excited!! i went into the male toilet lk twice!! hahas once in kb cos female toilet gt constructn work.. 2nd was a dare to go into macs toilet..im soo excited:)

2005-08-10T23:40:00.000+08:00

i missss wenhuiii. hahs .. yepps. i did.. i hate pw.. seriously. lk serious. went ben hse to celebrate natiional dae ytd!! hhsash .. den we sang sonngs.. hahs .. hmms. goin cousin hse kan be broin. nthg todo . hahas .. but i survived it:0 n wasted to dae n that dae.. on goin out.. anw.. ytd had frong legs chilli crabs!! omg.. yums. im drrooolg still :P thx lucia!! im fine w u ard:) mus go support shootg com tis fri!!

2005-08-06T23:33:00.000+08:00

half the nite i couldnt slpi hum my feelgs into a tune so familiar
i went ou to catch a breather to break free fm the world
i closed my doOrS behind my back leavg behind the sadness that filld me
i met the person i was yearng for
could it be true ? was it him ?
how cld tt bee., for ages i wantd tis to happen
and it wld happen on a nite like tis
i turn my thots to him
without speeches we exchange greetgs
i was familiar with his every moves
i cld memorise dem fm the last tm we met
i held back my feelg
i dun wan to reveal that i was mesmerised by him
his eyes sparkles
his hair smelt nice in the wind that sets us apart
the earrg that he wore glisten in the dark
den an ear piercg sound vibrated thru our ear lobes..
threateng to explode within our brains
i sat up alone on my bed
it was afterall a dream
my i meet him the nxt time .
tis is crap but i guess im talentd:)

2005-08-06T23:29:00.000+08:00

i guesss my pms moood subsided. hahs . but im still tired. waitg 4 12 to cum so that i kan wish stinkg anqi happi bdae. hahs

2005-08-06T23:21:00.000+08:00

playd bball w the klass ytd ... den vball . hash dere i gt my orh chey . heeS. proven my super tian cai skills on abc that barry was sopoo amazd of. hahas .. that he offerd to treat meee drink . hahs . well bein the niceee mee. i ask him to treat anqi tooo~~ hahs . but sumtimes i wonder. will she do e saem ? lets nt thk negatv. anw. i thk i piss jS off. ok sort of he pisss me off den i pisss him bac . wer quits.

2005-08-06T23:11:00.000+08:00

im felelg kinda fuckd up. i dunno y . pms-ing i guess. thats wads happeng these few daes. i dunnoo.. wads wrong w meeee. i shd learnt my lessson nstop it. lk stop it seriously. i wish dere are anti pms pills. i niid dem. jus read a depressg blog. so i thk i became affectd. perhaps sum, ppl realli alwaz look happi.. but its nice to noe that we are both the same sort of creature. hahs . she os like me.. hahs . shu min is realli a niceee fren. i mean. that dae i went bac aj in frantic hope to meet him but thats nt the pt. anww on fri gt squash comp agst jj . so i went to beeee pour orange jiuce woman. hah s. den we did stttopid stuffs like climbg out thru the window of the squash dere.. well.. secretly/./ tts has been my deepest darkest desire hgagags ., to climb thru it.. i thk the nxt attempt is to climb back in . hahs . well. another sngs ger climb after us!! shumin mee n her!! i 4gt her name isix shu qi ?? quite chio~ hahas . looks lk every1 else thk wer mad!! but i thk its ther st nicks spirit~~ hahas . den playd agst the wall. had sorta fun. guess jealously over possdeion sets in within meee again. lately of cos. readg harry nwwww havg menses cramps"( sux vb was fUN

2005-08-06T22:52:00.000+08:00

harrrllooooe. went ikea to get anqi prezzzi withdalrinnng lucia:))) hahahs. welll jus gt the bad news wh nt goin on mon .. sorrrta depresssss nw.:( hjahash . n nt to mention j2 happily remindd to meeee by her. :( i tot i saw him at thomson cc todae. but i guess its alll an illusion. a mere image that disappear when im awake. hw i wish i dun haf to wake upo fm the dream. jus go on dreamg lk wad i use to do so. at least last tm . the hurt was minimised.

2005-07-28T08:54:00.000+08:00

突然累了歌手:林俊杰专辑:编号89757
吃饭吃到睡了
我开车开到傻了
我看书看到你了
开始怀疑我怎么了
说话说到吐了
我写歌写到疯了
我爱你爱到盲了
天知道我又怎么了
不舍得舍不得都分手了
舍不得不舍得散了
爱是你的我是我的完了
原来我只是突然累了
原来我不说了
原来我撑着撑到麻了
原来我不爱了哒啦......

2005-07-28T08:43:00.000+08:00

For every minute you remain angry, you give up sixty seconds of peace of mind. Ralph Waldo Emerson
Always write angry letters to your enemies. Never mail them. James Fallows
If a small thing has the power to make you angry, does that not indicate something about your size? Sydney J. Harris
Some people are so afraid do die that they never begin to live. Henry Van Dyke
Suicide is man's way of telling God, "You can't fire me - I quit." Bill Maher
Take away love and our earth is a tomb. Robert Browning
Love is life. And if you miss love, you miss life. Leo Buscaglia
If you don't like something, change it. If you can't change it, change your attitude. Don't complain. Maya Angelou

2005-07-28T08:22:00.000+08:00

boooS.. im sick!! hahas .. didnt go sch todae. shit lo.. i didnt go sch on mon too. went swimmg w mel.. hahas . kenasunburnt. now havg bad sore throat ouch. jhajs . i miss hl . so long nv sit w her liao.. haha ., sorta thk that anqi is not a realli good fren but i gotta make do w it i guess. in that horrid sch. hahas . at least i gt lion xiutang n last but not all huiling n her evil smile!! hahas .. ate soo much on mon. we ate wanton mee shui jiao 1 .. prata.. tou huay.. bubble tea.. ya kun ... goodness noe wad else . hahas . but i had fun. :) gagas . i thk im startg to peel shit. hahs . wenhui!!! is ur eyes okay ??? and lulU!!! hahas .. orange bwl change taste alr.!! i still waitg 4 ccc shirt man. hahas ..

2005-07-23T18:29:00.000+08:00

boos/. ruoyun blog cant tag currrenlty.. whahas . anw. den i shall tag here .. hahas .. yo ruoyun!! whahahhas.. bet ur smiling over dere. :) hahhas .. smile sae chhhheeeeseee ~!! yumyum./ hahs greedy pig!
anw ytd i was so dammit dumb i rush after playg bb to tkd onli to relalize that i 4gt to brin belt. ;( whahs .. so i didnt join until he was testg he saw me ask me sick ar. i sae no lar i nv brin belt den he ask me nvm join lar.. den so 2pid he larter sae hweeres ur pants.. go wear la.r. i still sae mus wear ar. he was lk den .. wait u kick how. qhahas . apparently. im brainleess:9 anw.. had fun playg with the kids.. i amazed dem all by doin the wrigglg of the hands.. :) hahas .. :D .. yippes. im a kids idol:) oooo anw.. i plan to join recrea vball. ytd pon pe to play vball w anqi.. she sae i set not bad wor!! hahs . even huili saes so.. made fren w the bb gurl beatrice ar.. wonder hw she noe my name. anw .. shes cool . i sort of lik her cos shes quite preety.. my type.:P hees. *licks her mouth with tongue* .. hahas . im sick.. ok. hahas . booos. heeS. den i ask js to teach me hw to set.. we were playg that w a bball .. injured my wrist lar. ok .. im dumb . basketball is basketball volletball is volleyball. play volleyball with basketball of cos will get hurt. im dumb .. sorrrriw./ hahas .. anw.. anqi n i were soo dumb to. dun even noe hw to opoen e lock 4 vball cage. she noe passwrd den dunnoe hw to open.. we even went to ask jinyong looor.. hahs . when she mange to open aftter we both tried soo mani X times.. i was shock lk realli shoick tt i nearly scream when i saw the lock open. :) mouth drop.:) hahas . the keyis to open fast-.-'' looks lk cos we soo sua ku never openb those lock b4.. we were doin the numbers lk tortoise. boos. dun lauff. hahas .. my toe hurt fm bball. anw .. i wanted to join recrea vball so that i will haf sumthg common with chao ah beng!! heeeAS.. den we kan play toghet/.. hw romantic. *wo xiang tai duo le* hahhs

2005-07-23T18:09:00.000+08:00

went to amk lib w wenhui!!! hahas .. left jason water bottle dere larrr.. lucky found it .. otherwise.. hes goin to skin mee alive:( hahas .. den we studied at kfc which i thot was bk. hw 2pid. hahas .. dottts. den walkd ard amk central eatg lk a pig. maluating miself over chocs. hahas .. welll the worst part again.. to haf her remindg me of j2!!! haix..,..

2005-07-23T17:38:00.000+08:00

haux.. finaly found enuff courage to write these dwn:(.. hahas .. okuies..lets see when was it ..erm think its 190705 she dun feel lk goin .. den met at macs after she made me wait for 1 hr plus at ri bustop lar.:( boos. but i had my hotcakes.. after that went to watch wet dreams.. eheees. was so paiseah to buy the tics lkar.. whahs . den i was saying i dun mind workg as the ticketseller nxt time u noe.. den when ppl buy ra show i kan sit dwn n lauff at dem .. ok childuish :( hahas .. den inside the cinema .. onli got two cek ko peks lar!! n dey were alone. gross.. hahs so we hop over to e nxt theatre to watch a bit of the show.. thk got 2 out of the 4 pathetic ppl in the whole cinema saw us:P /.. hahas .. den we went to watch the show lar. :) hahas ..
den we went to walk ard.. b4 i pei ta go home alll the way to CHUA CHU KANG looor.. ahhas .. long sia. den went to yck i met lucia!!! omg. hahas . sooo dammit qiao lor.. cant believe it.. :)))))) hahahs .. den went to find 2pid wenhui!!!! hahas i met peize on the gate there!!! gosh .. chio bu!!!!! hahs . ok the hightlight of the dae lar.. i saw my j2:( ,,ok i guess shd be :) but .., hahas .. i act dao aGAIN.. :( boo bet i piss him off lk shit now. hahas .. afterall i daoed him lk zillions of times. alr. booooos.. wanna cry mans./ depressssd!!!!!! hahas .. ok den we went to change onverall thk i walk pass him ziklion times.. sae 3 .. dennn i didnt even sae hi.. e worst part is wenhui sae he was lookg at me lk waitg for me to sae hi.. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! arrrrrrrrrhhhhhhhhhh wanna die lar. hahas of happi n sad. irony sia. haix.. goshhhh i cant belive it. i sux. :( aj rox cos of j2:) . i saw chao ah beng too :) hahas . but im not over j2:( hahas .. den met w del who later dumpd by for her xxx den wet nyp to eat w harrrrrriii hu made me wait for zillion of hrs. :( boos. hahas .. den off i go to weeep abt my j2:( hahas

2005-07-15T19:34:00.000+08:00

well. ytd went nightmarket with monkey.. den we went to stalk tis xiao didi ..@@ omg..his hair was sooo nice. lar. hw we noe? we TOUCHD it!! yipppes. hahash .. omg.
todae was quite a nice dae.. went to sit with hl durin econs.. sorri 4pangsayg u dear.:( u noe why rite. :() anw.. den went to play frisbee with the kalss without anqi.. she went vball. hahas .. den it was quite fun lar. though i totally suc at it. hahas . den went to check out floor ball. sharon so ncie goin to hellp me n marilyn wirte dwn our names. hahas . den rain. soo we all went under the shelter .. to SING. guess wadddd.. todae 2 pplk sae i shd go kbox!! ahsh . vicki n barry!! ahsh at diff time!! im soo hap[i . i kan almost seee the ceiling crashg mi enormous head. hash .. n guess wad.. soon it wld haf to change to enormous face since im gaing tons of weight.:( dam sad./ ogosh. sighs. im still cravg for ice kachang. :L( mb i shd be lk wenhui.. stick to BREAD everry dae/./ mb i kan start to lose FATs.

2005-07-10T13:04:00.000+08:00

yesterdae wazs pop.. went super early. ok 330... met lucia liying lydia at bball .. sian. whhahas den playd bball in netball court.. later woonling peiseee xiaowen came. n lydia stjohn fren./ ajajsj / sooo damit fun/. den went to watch pop in hall. it was cobined 1.. i guess np 1 was sup[er loong. ahhas den i piggy back stepfanie all the way.. even thru stairs ok@@@ i roc sia. sooo strg./. muscle woman. heSES. okkk.. the performance were ok./ we sang veri loud.. hahas .. mb we are hinderg their show. they all look sooo sad when singg den we lk sing untoil soo gao xing. hahas . mei ban fa.. is jayt chou songS/ jhaahjas ok im re4gretg now alr 4 not bringg my cam. :( .. sobbues./ hhaas/ went touhuay shop. n erm. well. i jus dey all found out abt jS cos of frenster. okkk. wad make it worse he was outside waitg den dey all ran out to seeeee. bridget was most kuazhang sae wad lets go kb macs o hai shi suan le. jhajajs ./ okis.. dui lian. but cab still rox. :)

2005-07-08T22:56:00.000+08:00

heyheys!! soo long fm net. hahas ..welll. basically. i passd econs with an E . hahas . n faild chem. quite happi.. since i got the same marks 4 chem as aiwern. ahhas .. sorta found consolence in that. :) .. well i jus read sumone's diary n thk that sum ppl are such an ass. i mean wads their prob with jealousy? shdnt u be happi when ur fren does well? fark off lar wa lao these ppl . idiot.
ok anw. i dont wan to tok abt such ppl. they are SORE LOSER./
playtd bball with my klass mates:) woo was soooo dammit rough la. hahs . dam farni to watch leong hao sae relac la n zhong min laughg his head off. hahas . selene was sooooo cute when she shoots. hahas .. aiwern play until sooo jin li .. so dirty.. eee chou chou . whahs . :)
den i decidd not to go 4 photok todae. im tired. hahas .. den met gong gong on the bus!!! hahas . so qiao. went to tkd.. hahas .. eliz the dao one sooo kool la.r. hahs . n tis xiao didi help me pick up my contacyts eye drop[!! o gosh. lian hong. :) .. anw .. ytd ytd nite i dreamt of chaO ah beng!! ogosh!! hahash .. soooo sweet. ahhas .. cant rmb wads it. but i noe i rmb him :)
ytd met jason in the bustop .. did i mention i was caught on tv i thk. cos dey were filmg . den mc king was in the car rite in front of me dey stop. i thot learng driver or cant start engine or wad. but den i saw the camera n i was so loser drawg stnnicks-.-'' ok . sucks. whhas. sden i met hason n he even gave me $5 to buy tou huay. ok mb i snatchd it fm, him. he soooo cute@!! ogosh. hahs

2005-07-01T20:51:00.000+08:00

heyhey!!! im back fm a wk of torture!!! yipppes... ahhas .. sooo dammit shaung its finally over.. wellwell.. was super idoit todae. as i was at the bustop waitg for anqi.. ooo no lets talk abt sumthg b4 that. i was on the bus when i saw anotehr quite chio ger on the opp bus. i kept starg until she turn ard .i turn away/ den later on i stare again n she caught me in the act. :( .. n i burst out laughg. hw dui lian. :( sObbs hahash ././ but i haf preety good luck lately. been seeing a lot of chiobu n kena electocutd by dem. :) met up with bridget todae.!!! yay!!!!! hahas .. sooo dammit nice . toking 2pid stuff lk bra size n gettg each other aroSe. by movg our legs up . hees. ok rather pervert to do tt in public. hees. o n that was on the top of ouyr lungs. which means. every1 cld hear. opps=x. den walkd dem (she n chiobu fren w cat high boi) to cathigh gt performance. hwees. n 2pid anqi calld 4 me to pei ta. okkks bein the usual nice old mee. i went to rescue anqi fm boredom. hees. i met bo tak wai on the way. lookd rather diff. she look improve. . has. meannie. anw. den went to chat at macs laughg lk mad woiman. haiing ppl to lose space cos we refuse to go although onli gt a packet of miserable fries. heees. den went bac n guess wad... i met joy n dalphine n the mrt!! soooo dammit qiao!!! dey calld me i saw dem n shoutd aaaaaaa anqi sae is sUPER loud cos it went rite into her ears n the ppl ard us wereREALLY starg lar. throw face again. hees. but i dun care. was toing arcorss ppl at the top of our voices. as usual. heeS.had fun. my throat hurts. :( mus b the fries n my darlings

2005-06-24T20:13:00.000+08:00

im rotting at hom. i typED an entry n guess wad.. my com hangd up oN mee. haix. wad luck. anw. the highlight oF todae is wenhui...'s fren. whahahs. making mi head swelll lk anithg
the oNli thk i thk wh said sOOO far thats close to reality is that she makes my head swell at the expense oF shrinkg her ehad =p. lolx. take it ex wh .. darling. i lvoe u thats hw u won mi over. u loCKD up my heart n threw away the key. i belong to u . 4eva lOVe. cos u alwaz my mi touch my ceiling. and make me believe. i kan fLy. with the help oF mi head. :)

2005-06-21T23:12:00.000+08:00

if we are goin to die tml. shd we sae all we feel todae. the pt is. we will nv noe when we ar goin to leave. tts y we will 4eva keep thgs we wanna sae in our hearts instead oF voicg dem out. when we are doNe with lives and loOk bac. will we regret wad we haf done or wad we haF not ? kinda weird that animals haf less worries and stress compared to humans. arent humans the ones hu create stress free high tech equippmt etc. but on the other hand. arent humans the ones tt create their own problems>? probz dont jus appear. humans went to create dem. in times oF caves n dino. human minds were simplified to be incapable oF thking toO much. as time progress and human develop more n more skills to solve existing probs. more complicatd probz derieve fm such. but again. without probz and trails. how do we noe hw much we haf grew up n matured. but is there a need to matured/? y isix tt children kan smile so geninuly while adults haf to force one out./ cant we jus display our emotions as we please without hurtg another/ y do u seek the truth when the truth hurts u? yet after knowg the truth u refuse to accept but choose to foLLow wad u wish the truth to be. humans will start to distort everythg and twist facts into wad they wan.the desire to accomplish everythg might seem ambitious. but without a goAl there wont be a dream. without a dream dere wont be the dare to do sO. without the dare to dream. hOw wld we do Anthg / therefoRe. Dream Dare Do. do u dare to dream?

2005-06-21T21:16:00.000+08:00

Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting
the right one so that when we finally meet the right person, we will know
how to be grateful for that gift.

When the door of happiness closes, another opens, but often times we look
so long at the closed door that we don't see the one which has been opened for us.

The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch and swing with,
never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the best
conversation you've ever had.

It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it, but it's also true
that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives.

Giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they'll love you back.
Don't expect love in return; just wait for it to grow in their heart
but if it doesn't, be content it grew in yours.

It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone, an hour to like someone,
and a day to love someone, but it takes a lifetime to forget someone.

Don't go for looks; they can deceive.
Don't go for wealth; even that fades away.
Go for someone who makes you smile because it takes only a smile to make a dark day seem bright.

Find the one that makes your heart smile.
There are moments in life when you miss someone so much that you just want to pick them from your dreams and hug them for real.

Dream what you want to dream; go where you want to go; be what you want to be,
because you have only one life and one chance to do all the things you want to do.

May you have enough happiness to make you sweet, enough trials to make you strong,
enough sorrow to keep you human, enough hope to make you happy.

Always put yourself in others' shoes. If you feel that it hurts you,
it probably hurts the other person too.

The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything;
they just make the most of everything that comes along their way.

The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past, you can't go on well
in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches.

When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling.
Live your life so that when you die, you're the one who is smiling and
everyone around you is crying.

2005-06-21T21:08:00.000+08:00

You're never alone, I'm always near, When you're troubled, down or blue. All you have to do is call me, I'm always here for you. It doesn't matter where I'm at, It doesn't matter when. When you need someone to talk to, I'm here to be your friend. If you need someone to hold your hand, or a hug to say I care. If you need a shoulder to cry on, for you I will be there. So never think you are a burden, when the weight gets to be to much. You might find if you look hard enough, a good friend could be the right touch. You're never alone, I'm always here, through the good times and the bad. I'm always here to be your friend, I don't like to see you sad.

2005-06-21T20:50:00.000+08:00

1. If you're too open minded, your brains will fall out. 2. Age is a very high price to pay for maturity. 3. Going to church doesn't make you a Christian any more than going to a garage makes you a mechanic. 4. Artificial intelligence is no match for natural stupidity. 5. If you must choose between two evils, pick the one you've never tried before.
6. My idea of housework is to sweep the room with a glance. 7. Not one shred of evidence supports the notion that life is serious. 8. It is easier to get forgiveness than permission. 9. For every action, there is an equal and opposite government program. 10. If you look like your passport picture, you probably need the trip.
11. Bills travel through the mail at twice the speed of checks. 12. A conscience is what hurts when all your other parts feel so good. 13. Eat well, stay fit, die anyway. 14. Men are from earth. Women are from earth. Deal with it. 15. No husband has ever been shot while doing the dishes.
16. A balanced diet is a cookie in each hand. 17. Middle age is when broadness of the mind and narrowness of the waist change places. 18. Opportunities always look bigger going than coming. 19. Junk is something you've kept for years and throw away three weeks before you need it. 20. There is always one more imbecile than you counted on.
21. Experience is a wonderful thing. It enables you to recognize a mistake when you make it again. 22. By the time you can make ends meet, they move the ends. 23. Thou shalt not weigh more than thy refrigerator. 24. Someone who thinks logically provides a nice contrast to the real world. 25. Blessed are they who can laugh at themselves for they shall never cease to be amused.

2005-06-21T20:46:00.000+08:00

Don't cry because it is over, smile because it happened

2005-06-21T20:39:00.001+08:00

You can't be all things to all people. You can't do all things at once. You can't do all things equally well. You can't do all things better than everyone else. Your humanity is showing just like everyone else's. So: You have to find out who you are, and be that. You have to decide what comes first, and do that. You have to discover your strengths, and use them. You have to learn not to compete with others, Because no one else is in the contest of being you. Then: You will have learned to accept your own uniqueness. You will have learned to set priorities and make decisions. You will have learned to live with your limitations. You will have learned to give yourself the respect that is due. And you'll be a most vital mortal. Dare To Believe: That you are a wonderful, unique person. That you are a once-in-all-history event. That it's more than a right, it's your duty, to be who you are. That life is not a problem to solve, but a gift to cherish. And you'll be able to stay one up on what used to get you down.

2005-06-21T20:39:00.000+08:00

Anger is a condition in which the tongue works faster than the mind. You can't change the past, but you can ruin the present by worrying over the future. God always gives His best to those who leave the choice with Him. All people smile in the same language. A hug is a great gift... one size fits all. It can be given for any occasion and it's easy to exchange. Everyone needs to be loved... especially when they do not deserve it. Laughter is God's sunshine. Everyone has beauty but not everyone sees it. Take time to laugh, for it is the music of the soul. For every minute you are angry with someone, you lose 60 seconds of happiness that you can never get back.

2005-06-21T20:37:00.000+08:00

Ready or not, some day it will all come to an end. There will be no more sunrises, no days, no hours or minutes. All the things you collected, whether treasured or forgotten,will pass to someone else.
Your wealth, fame and temporal power will shrivel to irrelevance. It will not matter what you owned or what you were owed.
Your grudges, resentments, frustrations, and jealousies will finally disappear.
So, too, your hopes, ambitions, plans, and to-do lists will all expire. The wins and losses that once seemed so important will fade away.
It won't matter where you came from, or on what side of the tracks you lived.
It won't matter whether you were beautiful or brilliant. Your gender, skin color, ethnicity will be irrelevant.
So what will matter? How will the value of your days be measured?
What will matter is not what you bought, but what you built; not what you got, but what you gave.
What will matter is not your success, but your significance.
What will matter is not what you learned, but what you taught.
What will matter is every act of integrity, compassion, courage and sacrifice that enriched, empowered or encouraged others to emulate your example.
What will matter is not your competence, but your character.
What will matter is not how many people you knew, but how many will feel a lasting loss when you're gone.
What will matter is not your memories, but the memories of those who loved you.
What will matter is how long you will be remembered, by whom and for what.
Living a life that matters doesn't happen by accident.
It's not a matter of circumstance but of choice.
Choose to live a life that matters

2005-06-21T20:17:00.000+08:00

hmms. i was jus wonderg the diff betw start and end. shd we all noe the wad the end will appear to be like. will we still start the start? xiao mei saes if is a gd endg den will start . but wad if its bad. and the meang of bad. isix wad we perceive to be .or wad it realli is. i don noe. pretty interestg. if we all noe hw thgs are goin to end up .will we still haf the courage to go thru them> will we still wan to go thru them since we alr noe wad we will end up like? without a start there will be no endg. but without an endg is dere a need to start? i don noe. is dere a reason to fall in love orsimply the need to fall in love. im in love with gx becas hes jus simply gaoxing or wad. do i need or wan to noe the reason. or is dere a reason? is love sumthg that dont need a reason. den hw do u noe ur in love. hw do i noe that when one dae ur gone i will miss u/ cos rite now i do. whahas.. ok tts crap. i jus miissss aj sudd so much. but do i love aJ/ or isix jus the ppl that stirrss my heart/ wad wld life be without the part i enjoyd at aj. but during the time in aj . i didnt realli like it. mus we realli noe hw to love sumthg onli when it is taken away fm us . if i didnt leave aj. wld i still love it as much as now? wld dere b a difference in havg it or losing it.sum sae the cup is half empty. sum sae half filld. xm sae jus check if gt lip print. if gt den half empty lor..logical. but is dere a diff .y isix tt optimist will see it as half filld? wads soo bad abt bein empty? dont we at one pt or another feel that way? empty lives. empty promises. empty rooM. the room in our heart isix realli waitg to be occupied or has it alr locked its doors/ mb it is within emptiness do we find space. space to breathe space to talk space to feel alive. every one of us haf photogenic memory . jus that sum of us dont haf film inside. isix reaalli good to own all our memories? to rmb dem 4eva>even the bad ones? wad if we kan erase our memories . will u do it/ erasg dem means losin part of life. i wont wan tt. i wan to imprint everythg that happens to me. den y do i wan to forget him. mb i cant. will memories haunt me 4eva. or isix jus me refusg to let go. will time heal all wound or will it simply wash dem away. by healg,. the scar will alwazx be present. nuthg kan remove it becos it has hurt u too deeply. but the deeper the cut. the more u will learn fm it n not repeat the same mistake again. or will u 4get with time> i don noe.

2005-06-21T20:04:00.000+08:00

hohos. i am listeng to jay chou new yi lu xiang bei. dam nice.. nicer den piao yi . hwhwha. had quite sum fUn todaes. hees. another dae oF slack. hearg hl history oF slack made me more confident oF slackg sumore . hahas. soo sad. didnt get to meet wh online. and btw. u bluff mee. ur testi is not as romantic as i thot soo lor. it does nt reflect our true love .we shd be more open abt bein a couple u noe darling. whahs

2005-06-20T23:20:00.000+08:00

immm back!! ahhas . the minute i got home. i rushd to shit. -.-'' ok . tts a bit groSs. anw. i went to call huiling (as i went toilet) whahas . cos i saw her missd call.... wahhas .. im sooo happi top hear her voice again . that woman! hgahash . anw. went to make xiao mei's prezzoi:)
was super smart. hahas . drew face on pOker cards. ok im bhb . :) had fUn in msia lar.. but i ate like a pig. the best part to me i thk is a steamboat. cos i ate sooo much n the tom yaM was super la . den i playd with my nephew/ kan u believe . im an aunty alr. :( sobbs. see hw olD m i . sighs. hahas ./.. anw. i thk hes in love with me. hes jus sooo cute. that boi. whahs. thk hes onli 3yrs old. tt menas i haf 4 more yrs to play with him before he reach the goLDen 7 :) anw. he calld me mama lea!! hahas .. im soo happeee. heeS. erm went tkd. ouch lor. mi feet hurts. haoix. was late again . =) gradg cumg upzx:)im soo sad. no 1 tag miblog. nvm. i shall tag it miself . waaaaaa

2005-06-18T01:48:00.000+08:00

heyheys.. ppl .. i m goin to msia tml. i mean todae.. hash . since nw alr 156 am. whahhs .. see u all on mon~~~ whahahhhas .. goin to pig out as usual. will miss u ppl :)

2005-06-18T00:38:00.000+08:00

dint gO tkd todaes. whahs .. kinda scared im goin to fail the gradg .. n i thk i confirm fail common test liao . :(

2005-06-16T21:37:00.000+08:00

wOke uP by papa den went to check time.. 630! den quickLy go call jS.. haf to gif him wake up callll he goin woRk in the end hes still late.. start at 700 he reach 8 .. pengs., den went to write darling wenhui letter.. hahs.. i was late coS i was writg it ok.. hahs . so dun blame urslef alr lar wenhui to be early n havg to wait for me in the bustop under the HOT sun. whahs
den we had hOtcakes!! prertty excitd to pay thru ez link. cos i thk its kinda excitg. den wenhui jus gaf me the -.-''''' face
den we shop ard amk central till i foUnd sum prezzi. heweS. den we went to library cos she was SOO nice to help her bro return boOks. wow. hash.. went dere to slacK n enjoy air con. heeS. MET SI ER DERE.den as we left she saw me. i dint sae hi cos i wasnt sure it was here. anw.. she wave i wave.. she was lk shhhhh. ok i noe im LOUD./ hahash .//. den went toiletttt hahs. 2pid wh didnt noe lib gt toilet. mountian tortoiseee. heeS. den went aJ!!!!!!!!
1st locker to boast to me huiqian bdae preezzi. den i headd strg 4 greeen tea.. i miss the vendg machine!!! whahhas . den went to seeee vb . dun haf traing:9 den went check out squash.. dun haf:( .. dennnnwalkd ard. was bein thick skin as wh describe to ask her fren kan lend ball. but i thk im not lor.. hahs. is jus bein hMms.. dunno hahs .. cos i dint wan to play w ppl .. jus with wh.. so that i kan grasp her hand and shoOt in the ball. ok i noe it sounds siCK. whahash.
anww... den we toOk foto... hahs. had a great time with her!! hahash .. cos yeps. shes HOT. hahas . den went to help js cut a bit oF hair.. whahsh... i kena piggy back!! it was sooo super FUNNNNN.. hahashs. it was reallli fUn u noe.. whahahsh .. hahashashahashahs .. im still head swoolen fm thkg oF taxi n j2. yepsS. n some touchg thgs ruo yun said.. hahs. i loVe u no 10. =D

2005-06-16T09:36:00.000+08:00

想别的可是在你眼中察觉什么一闪而过怎么像是寂寞于是我会更沉默没说的全世界差点都弄懂了那是什么而我尴尬笑着走开只能够装做不懂怎么能拆穿你的不同(oh偏偏)这地球这么小这么挤这么瘦这地球这么小这么挤这么瘦太阳刻意晒得那么凶为什么你出现在他出现以后你怎么连话都说不清楚那温柔的tone我听得清楚我站在他的身边你站在我的面前怎么这样心里会难过你怎么连话都说不清楚那温柔的痛我记得清楚他站在我的面前你经过我的身边忽然之间心里又难过为什么

2005-06-16T09:34:00.000+08:00

"Somewhere I Belong"]

(When this began)I had nothing to say And I get lost in the nothingness inside of me (I was confused) And I let it all out to findThat I’m not the only person with these things in mind (Inside of me) But all the vacancy the words revealed Is the only real thing that I’ve got left to feel (Nothing to lose) Just stuck/ hollow and alone And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own [Chorus] I wanna heal, I wanna feel what I thought was never real I wanna let go of the pain I’ve held so long(Erase all the pain till it’s gone)I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m close to something realI wanna find something I’ve wanted all along Somewhere I belong And I’ve got nothing to sayI can’t believe I didn’t fall right down on my face (I was confused) Looking everywhere only to findThat it’s not the way I had imagined it all in my mind(So what am I) What do I have but negativity ’Cause I can’t justify the way, everyone is looking at me (Nothing to lose) Nothing to gain/ hollow and alone And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own [Repeat Chorus]I will never know myself until I do this on my ownAnd I will never feel anything else, until my wounds are healedI will never be anything till I break away from meI will break away, I'll find myself today[Repeat Chorus]I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m somewhere I belongI wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m somewhere I belongSomewhere I belong

2005-06-16T09:25:00.000+08:00

"Part Of Me"

Part of me won’t go awayEveryday reminded how much I hate itWeighted against the consequences Can’t live without it so it’s senselessWanna cut it out of my soulAnd just live with a gaping holeTake control of my lifeAnd wash out all the burnt tasteI made the problems in the first placeHang my head low ‘cause it’s part of meYa hardly see right next to the heart of meHeard of me the routine scarNew cuts cover where the old ones areAnd now I’m sick of thisI can’t stand the sandpaper thoughts that grade on my sanityI rather not even be then the man that’s staring in the mirror through me[Pre chorus]Cut myself free willingly Sstop just what’s killing me [x4]I feel it everydayI feel I made my wayI feel it swell up inside, swell up insideSwallowing meFreedom can be frightening if you've never felt itOnce it’s been dealt with you feel like you’ve been touched by something angelicAnd then melted down into a pool of peaceCease to be the animal you used to beRemove the broken parts you know were wrongAnd feel the karma when the problem’s all goneAnd then you start to see another piece of yourself that you can’t let beMemories of the last fight to free yourselfTake it to the depths of the bottom of the wellAnd now you know you can choose to lose the part in your heartWhere your insides bruisedYou can live if you’re willing toPut a stop to just what’s killing you[Pre chorus x4][Chorus](Alive in me, inside of me, a part of me screams away silently This part of me won’t go away, part of me won’t go awayEverywhere I look around I see how everyone aught to beEvery time I see myself I see there’s always something wrong with me)[Chorus x2]I feel it swell up inside, swell up inside, swallowing me [x2]

2005-06-16T09:17:00.000+08:00

Accomplish something for yourself, not others.
If you think you can do it, you can. If you believe you can do it, you will. If you trust you can do it, you will make a difference. It's how you deal with failure that determines how you achieve success
Keep your face to the sunshine and you cannot see the shadows
Friends are the ones who lift us from our feet when our wings forget how to fly.

2005-06-16T09:12:00.000+08:00

To the world you might be one person, but to one person you might be the world --Unknown
Love is like a butterfly, hold it too tight, it'll crush, hold it too loose, it'll fly --Unknown
People are lonely because they build walls instead of bridges.
Each friend represents a world in us, a world possibly not born until they arrive, and it is only by this meeting that a new world is born.

2005-06-16T09:07:00.000+08:00

"Never let the fear of striking out get in your way." - George Herman "Babe" RuthDon't let what you cannot do interfere with what you can do." -- John Wooden
"It's not whether you get knocked down; it's whether you get back up." -- Vince Lombardi"Don't give up at half-time. Concentrate on winning the second half." -- Coach Paul "Bear" Bryant
"There are only two options regarding commitment; you're either in or you're out. There's no such thing as life in-between." -- Pat Riley
"Be more concerned with your character than with your reputation.Your character is what you really are while your reputation is merely what others think you are." -- John Wooden
"The man who has no imagination has no wings." -- Muhammad Ali

2005-06-16T09:01:00.000+08:00

"Accept the things to which fate binds you, and love the people with whom fate brings you together, but do so with all your heart."
"Don't fear failure so much that you refuse to try new things. The saddest summary of a life contains three descriptions: could have, might have, and should have."
"When one door of happiness closes, another opens; but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one which has opened for us."
"Don't be afraid to give your best to what seemingly are small jobs. Every time you conquer one it makes you that much stronger. If you do the little jobs well, the big ones will tend to take care of themselves."
"Happiness is not getting what you want, it's wanting what you've got."
"The best way to cheer yourself up is to try to cheer somebody else up."
"For every minute you are angry, you lose 60 seconds of happiness."
"We are not put on this earth for ourselves, but are placed here for each other. If you are there always for others, then in time of need, someone will be there for you."
"Good friends are like stars ... you don't always see them, but you know they're always there."
"I asked God to give me happiness. God said, 'No. I give you blessings. Happiness is up to you'."
"The value of life lies not in the length of days, but in the use we make of them."
"When walking through the "valley of shadows," remember, a shadow is cast by a light."

2005-06-15T19:50:00.000+08:00

hmms. now i sort of noe the meang of pinng away. is kinda diff.. cos every minute i wanna see her. every second i wan to be with her. but i cant. so im goin to smash her up and keep her in the hospital so that i can get to see her whenever i wan.

han wen hui
watch out
heeeS

2005-06-15T19:33:00.000+08:00

to meet you . i need a stroke of luck
falling in love with u need lots of courage
the small me onli have me alone
in this world. it cant tolerate true love
dey sae i shd 4get abt u
i rather i 4get abt my silliness
lossing u i will rack the heavens
thats nuthg compared to the pain of losing u
i do my best to stop time 4 u
to get you in my arms
liFe is full of gatherg n breaking
leavg behind is our love trails
dey sae i shd let go
going bac on my words harder
the hardest thg is to lose the power to loVe
in loneiness i look ahead
i try my best to stop time 4 u
i wan to make u happi in my arms
live endgs is either gatherg or breakg
at least it has left me with ur trails
i will do my best to stop time
to hold u in my arms
life endgs is either full of gatherg or breakg
at least i see you in the last chapter
the whole world is waitg 4 mee too look at u
let me kiss you and love you

2005-06-15T11:23:00.000+08:00

jason is finally back!!! goshgosh .. im misssssed him sooo sooo mUch. muhahas. erm. he boughts tons of chocS to kiLLme. :( but i still ate them . hahas ..immmm misssing ruOyun afta looKIng at those sexy touchy msges she gave meeee. and im missing wenhui.. so i cant wait tilll i seeee herrrrrr.

2005-06-14T21:33:00.000+08:00

imm sick .. :( .. sobbis.. woke up with a horrible soirrre throat. dennnn studied chem a while ,.. couldnt take it.. so super horrible. :( .. den went out with js go bball court. got play lar.. but rusty. at leats he todae quite zhun ... hhas/ anw.. wenhui msg me abt j2 and chao ah beng lar.. make mee dui lian again... cos i was smilg to meself heeS./.. anw/.. had a chat time chattg woith wen hui on the fone.. her sweet sexy voice makes me wanna puke! whahhas. no l;ar.// cheeerd meeee upz!! whahhas ...

2005-06-12T11:14:00.000+08:00

hmms. thurs went causeway pt with hwc rite to get bra.. den after tt met up with bridget n xin yi at macs.. den went home.. later yoshi calld me go macs .. crystal kezia n xinhui all dere.. hash . bet luciaA is jealous ./ =p

2005-06-11T17:44:00.000+08:00

The reason you never cross my mind is becauseyou're always on my mind.
The reason why I don't like you is because I love you.
The reason I don't want you is because I need you.
The reason I wouldn't cry if you leave is because I would die if you left.
The reason I wouldn't live for you is because I would die for you.
The reason why I'm not willing to do anything for you is
because I would do everything for you.
The reason I chose my life is because you ARE my life.

one thousand of yrs ago
i met you
in the valley of fountain
i lost you
u left without a word
to return to the present
leaving me alone
one thousand of yrs later
i came to the future
there i met you once again
our lives exchangd paths
our eyes met
our heartbeat danced
i found you in the future
to be my wife
hohos. dedicatd to david. my lao gong...
dun be jealous hor wenhui n ry n huiling n lucia.
im strgt ok., im not attractd to females.
whaha . ok . i gone crazy..
心跳乱了节奏梦也不自由爱是个绝对承诺不说撑到一千年以后放任无奈淹没尘埃我在废墟之中守着你走来我的泪光承载不了所有一切你(需)要的爱因为在一千年以后世界早已没有我无法深情挽着你的手浅吻着你额头别等到一千年以后所有人都遗忘了我那时红色黄昏的沙漠能有谁解开缠绕千年的寂寞
my heartbeat danced to a tune
my dreams cant be controlld
love can withstand a thousand yrs curse
after that it drowns in sand n dust
in my tears u appear

2005-06-11T16:55:00.000+08:00

ysdae was a horrrrible daeee... met wujuan at thomson cc to study .. STUDY OKIES!!! not commitg adultry. hahas .. den ate french fries that taste like dey haf been recookd. -.-'' well that was perhaps the best time of ysdae. cos went home.. had to go yishun ahma hse. then dey refuse to zao lorr.. wantd to watch yin ca yang cuo till the end jus becas its nice n farni n the last epsiode. but hello their daughter here was dying of slp lorrrrr.. was soo pissd off and slpy.. bangd mi elbow a couple of times to vent my anger. hohos. on thurs went j8 with david to buy brA~~~ hahs . in the end . went causeway pt to get it. hohoS. and guess wad. the 222pid ger 4gt her hp rubber band and my present to her:( the 2pid gurl bleaxz. hmms. at j8 this 2pid man came to ask us hw to read 2 names. dirty old man. bet hes looking at my darling cleavage!!!!!!! sucker... dirty che kooo pek!!!!!!!!! mi feet was soooooo pain after walkg soo much lor. hmmS. i wonder hw woman walk in heels. i mean platform is alr such a chore., imagfine a stick on ur heels. wow. wonder woman. if woman are tough enuff to endure the kill on their feet. y are soome woman sooo weak. cryg over silly stuffs? hmMS.

2005-06-08T22:10:00.000+08:00

u all kan never NEVER ever imagine wad happen to me todaes... i went play bb w jS.. lucky i did
mans!! ahhashshash . cos as i was playg playg... gueess wad.. i noticed sumthg differnt.,,. my body sneses automatic went alarm oFF,, !!!! he was dere !! chao ah beng!!! CHAO AH BENG WITH AHHH FUUUUUU. ahhas . kan u believe it. omg.... gahahs .. i was totally stunnd. tried calmg mislef dwb\n. he was wearg sleeveless white. looking super bai. hahas .. hmm n ugly tooo. but cutew,,, hmmS. apparentkly. i like him to stick to vbball . hahhas . ah fuu was super zai .s ort of. i mean when dey playd full court match . hahs . he was sooo cute ah fuuuu. hahhas dey were asking jS to play match os. but he tired. hahash .. anw.. their black white ball tt looKs soo much lk vb hit meee!! n i was still smilg . maNs.,im sick . hgahahs .. den in order to avoid lettg dem seee. i was wiping mi face with the sleeve .. cos i was grinng fm ear to ear!! :) :) :) .. iiii mmm over the mOOn thkg abt it. wad a dae. mansmnas. but he super nv alwaz help to pick ball. tmd. hahahs . anw. im too happi to get angri!!~~~ whahahas .

2005-06-07T00:32:00.000+08:00

went b at 7 . den ate in central mkt gt nuthg to eat. went central .. saw zibbie kO!~~ haahahs . misss herrr. heeS.. hohos. wearg cj . -.-'' hahas . hmms. den went to watch bball. ~~ i m superb happii that wenhui still cant get over david darling. hahas . hOw 2pppod . hahs . wad a nice surprise sia. heeS. i wonder if i kept it 4 lk 1 mth . den sae break lioao hw will she treat me? kiss me more rite wenhui. inoe u love me. but dont shower me with soo much love lea
heeS.. ~~

2005-06-04T20:56:00.000+08:00

hmms. went bf with jS.. at central. walk one big round . in e end. make me miss my hOtcake time. :( . hahas . sighs. den went bac .. cos i wantd to watch tV~~ hahas . hmms. weird. cos at the bustop. at least 2 aunties were lOoKINg at him. welll... monkey escapg fm zOo is kidna weird lar i agrreeee.. hahs . den went sit at bs longlong.. sooo shit(sai) hahas .. hotsia .. den we went touhuay.. met his frennnn.. hahas .deyi 1 n bball 1 .. yoohos.. deN went to eat satay at the mkt. his stomach pain.. h,mms. welll later he still got match . *tsktsk . hahas . i miSs peiZe.. !! that dae went fareast with mellisa i met her.. superb shoCkd n happieee.. cos i lOvE her!! yaya!~~~
anw.. ytd went to celebrate ry bedae~~ su[erb fUn/. met hwc on the mrt.. welll i was sooo excitd that i tok over loudly. :P den with my superb dua bag.. was hittg every1 in e way. hahas .. den kena stare lar. haix. den we finally met at the dbg dere. cos we were separatd by a sea oF ppl. tts means. if she nv sae shes at the end. we wld haf met cos i wldnt haf moved!!stoopid gurl. den went to shop didnt buy flowers cos toO ex and cant even keEp. hahohaos. den met wenhui~ den plan choose cakeee. huiluing came.. o btw. i woke poOr hl up. she soundd pissd:( sorrrI.. ahahs . all hwc fault!! hahas .den went shopppg a while while wh went to get ry~ we sat at pasta mania ... to shock her.. yay~~ me n hl lar.. hwc n wh os went to get the vip here:)den we ate pizza.. n pasta ry poor thg. can onli eat pasta cos shes sick still recoverg.. :) bought her cheese cake anw.. den we bluff her go toilet. den me hwc stay behind get lighter. as usual the smart me.. burnt a hOle in the plastic. that pasta ppl was a bit shock. was lk are u sure the plastic is non toxic. hahs . opopps. i sae yesh lar of coswwad . hw kan i bear to murder ry although shes my rival in LOve For david. hahas den shes superb touchd. yay~~ ilovery~ den after tttt we went shop shop walk ard. bought a skrt. den dordor came.. we met dadada at carrefour. hahas . yi jia tuan yuan le~~ den walk ard bk to take fotos.. den ewvery1 had to leave... i saw weihui outsiude molecule. thx goodness shes wearg her orange hairband. otherwise i cant reco her lar.s hhas . opps. almost 4gt her name. :) love her. den hl cant take it had to go home n orh orh.. :( she slpt soo little. :)majong woman. haahs . den went with hwc to khatib. she left her wife all aalone lor. i was waitg for wujuan. she lost weight lorr!! so ji du!! hahas . i miss her toO.. hahas . todae she goin out w zibbie n xl!! chio bu!! hahs . den i stomach pain:( she was soo nice. help me go cafe get tissue. i love her mans... hahash . !~ yay~~~wh is still in total shock fm david mans. hahas .. maucsk

2005-06-02T17:11:00.000+08:00

hahs / went to play bball oin e moring w js.. dam slpy lor.. yi da zaooo.. ard 730. wa lao.. hmms. den sch got tons of st nicks ppl n other sch pple. met sin yao at e bustop. kinda gan ga / hahas .. n guesss wad. i 4gt her name. had to check ccc site. heeS. opps/. came bac ard 2 plus.. wa lao.. eat den slppp .. dam knockd out. hahas .. tired tired. heeS.. i misss all of dem. cant wait 4 tml!!

jiu shi ai ni

2005-05-31T11:11:00.000+08:00

i alwaz wanted to tell you

you gave unlimitd happiness

jus lk wad the oasis gaf the desert

tell me that u will b by mi side 4eva

be my roots , my wings to fly

so that i kan find my way home

i wan to gif it all wo restrictns

i wan to rmb how we waste time

spendg ,lookg into each others eyes

tis is the formula of our love

i love you

i love ur tears n smiles

with u ard. everythg has taste

i love you

makg my heart skip a beat

feelg the sweetness of aJ

feelg the security of hazel

i alwasz wantd to tell u

you gaf me unlimtd happiness

jus lk wad the oasis gaf the desert

i miSs u. (dordor//ry//angelyn//hwangching//huiling//yukki//wenhui//belinda//lucia//yoshika/wujuan//mellisa//basketball......gaOxing rox:)

2005-05-30T21:54:00.000+08:00

went to play bb w Js in e moring.. he was late.. was dere early.. startd drawg.. hahas .. wu liao lar . haash .. den he came liao.. i baskg in sun chao ta lioa lar
denn .. playd abc .. hohos. guess wad. air ball sooo mani times. tsk tsk. ke lian . in e end. expectd de.. i wON!! hahas . ok lor. he play 2 set i one .. 2 air ball not counted but hey! i gt in 3 pointer.lea . hash . den went to return cd to mingfeiii.. opppps. missd 17 calls xia si wo. dennn went drink tou hua.. return to play /./ woooa . dam tired. sun is lk damdam hOt lar. haix. den ressst . hohos. saw mf gers bball cum. hmms. one nnot bad lar. quite cute :) hahas . quite shaui lar she. hmms. not e typical ger shaui . a bit cute os.. ohohos .. den her teamates came. alamak . i wantd to ask her she fm wad sch de-.-' dennnn .... made a dare./ calld tis perosn over den i sae .. u veri cute. hahas . pengs.. den got 2 small xiao didi . hmmms. one came 1st lar.. e other 1 with e other teamates bro . heeS.. i was playg catchg w e otehr 1 .. the skinny taller 1 lks jS more. ok lorrr. mei ban fa. shall go g4 the bro . hahas .. lame.. toe kena. cos kept runng after himmms. haix.... jiang wo feeiiii .. a bit e other 1 . hahs . hes soo cute lar. so innocent . ask whetherr jS look beng anot.. he k i dunno . haven noe his true facts yet. wa laooo.. superb cute larrrr.. hahs . he wan to kidnap him home. hahas . den dey were lk learng hw to fake n everyythg.. hash.sokool. haixx.. den he playd match ..i watch e gers loo.. dey quite prooo.. hao xian mu.. hahas .... dennn went bustop.. the 268 1 .. show mii magic. hahas .. kOOllll.. hhas . ok lor. i was dam stopid lar. i bangd my head agst the thg twice lar. wa lao. keeep 4gettg dere gt no window to tang agst. :( . hahas .. head kena sunburnt dam painnn . haix. denn papa saw us togetherr. hm. kinda weird. cos i dint feel anithg. lk no fear. wan dan le. i keopt slapg miself. guesss hes shOck.. hmm. but i thk i wanna feel pain so that i will noe my existence. to remind me im still alive n feelg pain. thats y i love to slap pinch n beat miself. i guess thats os y i lk to do that to others.. not cos i hate dem. but i wan to feeel dem alive. lk dey are real n nort goin to disappear soOn. i dunn wan.

o anw . we were lk toking addias/// n nike when papa showd up with the red plastic bag brushg agst mee.. xia si wo w jason . heeS.. hahas .. so cute n fat jason. hohos. but dey dint sae anithg.. i finally noe hw to operate a washg machine... !!!! hahas .. means tml i kan go n use it... i shall try it tml!! but tml still gt archery lar. wth. wa lao. haix. dennn klass outg sumore. dun feel lk goin. seriously. haix/ bball roX.